Monday, April 11, 2011

86 hours!

I have now gone 86 hours without a cigarette.  Supposedly the worse is over, but I know I’ve made it as long as 2 weeks before.  This time though I am making the choice to avoid all smoking areas, which won’t be hard to do at all.  No one is smoking in my home now or my car, my hospital campus is non-smoking so I don’t leave on breaks at all.  I don’t hang out at anyone’s house where there is smoking, and I haven’t been to a bar in years.  My down fall during my longest previous quit was being around a group of smokers who were all smoking in front of me, before I was strong enough to fight the urge.  This time I know better.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Day 3-Your first love

My first love was Dandelion.  He was a fat cat, a yellow tabby, and was the perfect pet for a young child.  I dressed him up in doll clothes and played house with him for hours.  He would even ride in the seat of my toy grocery cart without complaint.  I adored that cat and I think he is why I have such a love for all types of animals.

I know short but sweet.  Day 4's topic will take me some time and may end up sounding like a therapy session.

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Day 2-Meaning behind your blog name

This one is pretty easy. Basically where I am in my life is about as far off as possible from where I thought I was going when I was 15 or even 18. I didn’t really want kids when I was in my teens (having my sisters be so much younger gave me enough of a taste). I wanted to go into law enforcement. I hoped to live somewhere warm, sunny, and near the water.

Instead, I am a mom, who works as a nurse, and we live in Mid-Missouri.

So… How exactly did I get here?

Friday, April 1, 2011

Exciting News

I’m going to be an aunt!

Ok, I guess technically I am already an aunt, but this feels totally different.

My BIL (TJ’s brother) has a daughter who is 6 months older than Jax. But he and her mother were an off and on thing when she got pregnant and then off for most of the pregnancy. There was no family baby shower and the mother is not someone I have ever been close to. In fact my niece was 3 months old before we got the DNA results and nearly a year old by time BIL had gone to court for visitation. Also my BIL is not one of my favorite people. Yes I got lucky with my MIL in that while she sometimes annoys me, we generally get along but my BIL is a few years older than me and very irresponsible and self-centered and generally drives me bat-shit crazy.

Now my little sister is pregnant. And I am so excited! For one I adore Paige and we get along great, for the other her husband Eric is awesome and will be a great father. I’ve known Eric most of Paige’s life as he was just a few years behind me at catholic school (I also know most of his family well). There will be a baby shower, and there is no question of the baby’s parentage. But part of me thinks this is more exciting to me because this baby will be blood. I am done having babies myself, and hope it is a long while before I am having any grandbabies, so this niece or nephew will have a very dotting auntie.

Of course not to say I don’t dot on my niece (BIL’s DD). I certainly do. At Christmas I spent as much on her as I did my own children and last year I bought her tons of cute clothes while garage saleing. But I think there will be a stronger bond with this new baby.

Please tell me I am not the only one who feels like it is a bigger deal when it is your sibling’s child as opposed to your SO’s sibling?